Friend request from ex (part 2)

As both of them had achieved what they wanted so life was back to bed of roses.Late night calls, cute good morning messages,caring about each other , movie dates followed. Their conversations now had that all the beautiful imaginations of life after getting married and even naming their babies. They had thought together of small little things such as color of walls , and how Amar would cook for her every morning and how sharanya will tease Amar when she will get annoyed. These so called little things in life always matter a lot.Our hopes are build around them. Sharanya and Amar were no different.
Sharanya had excellent communication skills and she was a bit childish also. Here in college she was made the CR by her class and she was enjoying her new found responsibility and attention she was getting from everyone. She was making new friends everyday and Amar was getting a bit of annoyed on this. Now whenever she used to tell him about her new friends,he used to taunt her in a mild way. But she never told him anything.
Then came their fresher's night and sharanya and her best friend anjali were going to perform a dance on the stage. Their performance was fabulous and wishes poured in from audience. Sharanya was getting popular in the college,everyone wanted to be friends with her.When Amar came to know about this,he got furious.
Amar-"who told you dance in front of the whole college?"
Sharanya-"what is wrong with it?"
Amar-"More and more people will see you dancing and will get attracted towards you.And I hate this."
Sharanya-"I performed on a decent Indian number and anjali was with me and moreover my parents don't have problem with this so you also shouldn't bother.I know what is right for me"
Amar-"you don't know guys from your college.Their way of looking at girls is wrong."

Sharanya didn't say anything after this.Something inside was getting broken.She was getting this painful thought that her mr.perfect's way of thinking was not right.Despite of being from a medical background,he was so orthodox towards his girlfriend or rather possessive.
Now things were started to getting worse between them.On one hand Amar was helping her parents on small things and impressing them but on the other , he had her password of facebook,which he monitored.

She got instructions from him on what to wear but sharanya never obeyed him.

Its not that they didn't loved each other but their ego was getting in between of the pure , sacred love of theirs.

One day sharanya got a good scolding from her elder brother for putting up her contact number on facebook.She was sure she hadn't done anything but she could not convince her brother.He was concerned for her no. getting circulated among people.Later when sharanya opened her profile to check,She was astonished on seeing something which she could not have imagined.Amar's no. was there in her facebook profile which meant Amar was checking her loyalty.This moment,this very moment changed everything for sharanya.She no longer wanted to be with him.Amar's insecurities had outgrown his love,his care for her.And she could not be a with a guy who didn't trust her.Her dreams of her perfect home,perfect life with him,their plans of wandering together,everything was lost in that very moment.She didn't fear of the society but of Amar,the person whom she had loved the most.

Now their talks were getting reduced and limited.Sharanya never felt the urge to talk to him.whenever he called,she talked to him but she never texted him on her own.The emotions were lost.

Now she spent her time googling 'how to break up without hurting him' because she never wanted him to get hurt.

Friend request from Ex (part 1)

It was a lazy sunday morning.Amar just had logged in into his Facebook profile after waking up.there were around three notifications...as soon as he saw the second notification,his sleep was gone.The discomfort and the ache had crept inside him.He felt now what is this girl upto??
After all those 3 years of longingness ,tears and pain , sharanya had sent him a friend request.Where was she when he needed her the most? Where was she when he was mentally destroyed because of his career.Amar's friends also had called up sharanya to make her understand about him but she left him.She left him like a hostel room.The room where we stay for a certain amount of time,we decorate it, nurture our dreams,our hopes with it and then leave when the time comes.
Amar begged and cried but it was of no use.

Sharanya..she was the best thing ever happened to him.  They had first met five and a half years back at teacher's day function of their coaching institute.Amar was tall,Fair and wore spectacles.he had a good height and was the brightest student in his class.Sharanya had beautiful long hair and she had the cutest chubby kind of cheeks.She was in 11th standard.They had a group of mutual friends and their numbers were exchanged.Thus began endless hours of talking and many group study sessions followed.Sharanya was not so good in studies and he always inspired her on the phone.Both of them were serious about cracking the jee exam and they were serious about each other too.Relationship in this age is selfless.Their love had no conditions and they supported each other.It was their first love.
After passing out class 12,amar moved to kota to prepare for his medical entrance exams.sharanya also started working hard for her class 12 boards.They talked to each other daily but now amar was getting busy with each passing day because of his classes.Amar had huge pressure on his mind from his family to crack the medical entrance exams because his elder brother was also a doctor and he was working hard for it.Love grows with distance.And this was true in their relationship.That year passed and he was back.
After jee exam results, sharanya joined a mediocre engineering college and amar took admission in a dental health college.They had decided to get married as soon as their education got over.Everyone knew sharanya at amar's home.

Love you mr.stubborn (part 2)

"So..Are you a first year?" he asked, looking in my eyes . Oh boy, those eyes carried the charm of a little baby and i already had started thinking about my future with him or rather should I say 'our' future.
Its quite strange that a single moment can make us sweep off our feet and actually I was acting stupid in love.
"yes.. cse department, First year." I said, looking at the ground.
then he thanked me and left.
The first week after that went by figuring out life here.We were juggling between our lectures and hostel life.I was not even able to catch a glimpse of him that entire week.By that time, I had heard enough things about him here.Many girls were after him and it was obvious because he was extremely good in studies and was the lead actor of the drama club. Being an actor at IIT will make you popular.
we met again, and this time it was not because of some Treasure hunt contest. I wanted to join the drama club and when I went there to enquire about things,I saw him. He was sitting with his friends on a bike with a guitar in his hands and singing song.I hesitantly walked towards him and asked him about the joining process.
I was a fresher and everyone here was looking at me.
I somehow gathered courage to speak and said " I want to join this acting society." And everyone here was cool and supportive. I joined it and we started practicing regularly. Rishabh was a bit dominating but this was drawing me more closer towards him.I hated him when he used to give me stubborn look while I was saying a dialogue but I had also caught him staring at me secretly a few times.Now we were friends.Gayatri had also started to come to our rehearsals here. Even she had noticed that untold affection of rishabh towards me. Whenever there was any confusion regarding some script or defining some character , rishabh was there to help me out. He always sat with one of his elbows resting on the back of the chair and had a constant smile on his face.
It was our fresher's night and rishabh was our anchor. Me and gayatri had dressed in our best attire and we were enjoying the performances by various other students. 
Meanwhile a game of confessions was started by rishabh and according to it anyone could confess by coming up on the stage.A few proposals came for the girls.Even gayatri got a proposal by a guy from mechanical department.He sang a weird song from 80s to propose her , and gayatri was all set to thrash that guy once he got down from stage.We were in tears laughing out in that funny situation. That guy was somehow saved by friends.Meanwhile a girl from Rishabh's class came up on the stage and took the mic.
she said "I have a confession to make."
Rishabh-"Oh great vernita , go ahead.I never knew you have kept secrets too from us". He said smiling naughtily.
vernita-"rishabh verma,I have fallen in love with you.Even I don't know when it happened but I really love you.If you love me then it is alright.You don't have to love me back but I really need to know your answer"
There was a 'woohooooooo' kind of sound in the audience and my heart was pounding very badly.I knew Rishabh was popular but I had never expected this kind of proposal from a girl.
Gayatri was looking at my face ,trying to read my emotions.I quietly left from there.I was wiping away my tears and was walking back to my room as fast as I could.Vernita was very pretty and was Rishabh's classmate.She a round face with long curly hair and was slim.
Our dreams have the exact length as our sleep.Once we wake up,everything vanishes.I was very sure that Rishabh would say 'yes' to her.Tears were flowing insistently from my eyes and I was thinking about him.I was not able to get him out of my mind.
Next morning I woke up with a heavy head and saw gayatri standing beside me with a cup of chai.I said "rishabh..." and she interrupted me in the middle by saying " here is your chai and get ready for the class otherwise we will be late."
Without saying anything, I got ready thinking and imagining rishabh and vernita together . As we left for the class, I saw a few people in corridor and they were staring at us.But I didn't think much about it because my mind was with him.Gayatri also spoke little on the way as she knew talking only meant hurting me more.Only gayatri was the witness and my companion of this short lived, one sided love of mine.
As I entered inside my class, I saw rishabh sitting on the desk of first bench with a guitar in his hands.He saw me and his eyes twinkled.He sang "A thousand years" from twilight series which was my favorite song.
After the song, He walked up to me and directly looking into my eyes said, "I am sorry for yesterday.I had seen you crying and walking away but as a host I was unable to leave the stage.I never knew Vernita had feelings for me but she is a friend and always will be.My heart was gone the first time I had seen you.I really love you and trust me, I promise you I won't let you cry again ,ever.You are the best thing ever happened to me"

Love you mr.stubborn! (part 1)

I got down at Kanpur station and checked my watch.It was 8 am to be precise and I was here standing at the platform at the city of my dreams.The place where I was going to spend the next 4 precious years of my life, IIT Kanpur. Somehow accompanying my dad, I reached the campus and was settled at girls hostel.
The classes we

re to start from tomorrow so me and my roommate had a whole day to roam around in the campus.My roommate's name was Gayatri and she was from Bhagalpur , Bihar . She was a short heighted girl with sharp features and was always in a happy and chirpy mood. The atmosphere around her was always positive and happy.
The best thing about Iits is they always have some competitions going on throughout the year. And being a fresher, We were clueless about them.As soon as we entered a building , treasure Hunt was going on. And a group of boys were running in all possible directions looking for something. Suddenly one of the guys from the group walked in our direction.He was a slightly tall guy with well built personality and his dressing sense depicted that he was from a well to do family. 
he came to us and asked us "can one of you please lend us your earrings? actually a game of treasure hunt is going on and we are in for our last clue and it is an earring " .  We thought for a while then I reluctantly gave him mine. He told us to meet at Singh's dhaba at 5 pm in the evening so that he can return it back. Then he walked away. Meanwhile, Gayatri was furious on me for lending a stranger my earring.According to her it was kind of stupid thing to do because we knew nothing about that guy.
It was 5:10 and I was here at Singh's dhaba . Being a newbie , It took a while to locate this place.
the place was not so decorated , but was clean and open and I could see a few students , most of them having Maggie here. Then I saw him. He was standing beside his cycle under a tree in the corner. I walked towards him.
He said " first of all thank you for the earring, we won the competition and my name is rishabh, Rishabh Verma." Then I never knew that this name will get so important to me that It will change my life.

It meant to be.....[part 1]

 From next week the unit tests were going to start but hazel's mind was only directed towards Jay.'Jay'....the moment she hears this name millions and millions of bells start to ring around her.These bell sounds were of  the nervousness when she sees him walking across the corridor,the feelings which hazel felt only for jay.

Jay was not any extraordinary guy at the high school.rather he was an introvert,an incredible quizzer and a geeky kind of person.He was tall and not so well built but what attracted hazel the most was his way of speaking.

The day when she first saw him was easter day at school and he was a giving speech on Easter .She noticed him n she was lost in his voice which was oh so capturing !! Jay and Hazel were studying in different sections at the same school.

Then for the next few months hazel was busy adjusting in the new school and its environment and she did not notice jay.

Then just before the annual exams,jay was on line on My space and they talked for the first time.Their conversations were mainly about their school life and studies.But gradually hazel started to wait for his phone calls and his mail.

She really did not knew why this mere guy was becoming so important for her.and those days when jay didn't  mailed her,the days were gloomy for her.

 "may be is doing the same thing as me...may be he wants so bad to call me,but wont just because i haven't called him....then again,may be i shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like i am missing him",hazel thought to herself. everyday before exams she saw jay keeping his bag just in the opposite direction of the room where she kept hers.she never found the courage to go and talk to him.Maybe she thought it wasn't the right time....

The exams got over and jay went to his home town.Just after the vacations got over  hazel thought jay had forgotten her.it was silly,childish and stupid.how can her fairytale love story can turn into reality.in today's world,there was nothing called that true love thing.may be he was just playing around with her.she really didn't knew.

After a week during the break time,she saw him near the library,he was returning books.She waved her hand to say him 'hi' , to which a formal smile came from his stubborn face.As if he was doing it for a formality.That night,his phone call came....'you were looking cute today',he whispered.hazel said 'thank u,so you finally noticed me today'.'maybe',he said.

Then there were talks about their physics teacher who had given them a huge assignment to solve and talks about hazel's pet dog , named Doy.Hazel was delighted that someone was noticing her.They started to talk daily after school on the phone.He meant everything to her,but to him she was nothing.

The first blow came to her when she got to know that jay already had a girlfriend who was studying at some other school.hazel was shattered.she tried to ignore him at starting but she couldn't because it was impossible for her.

but life has to move on she thought.

she started to spend more time with her friends.playing with doy.solving algebra's equations.but there was something inside her that went missing.she  was no more  the same hazel.

"i never stopped loving.i just stopped showing it."

pani puris equals to heaven !!

college is over.and i am missing my friends like hell.now days my cravings for street food has considerably increased.although i have a wedding to attend on 26th june and i should be keeping a watch on my diet but i am eating a lot..:P

i have collected some old hindi magazines from neighbouhood and will be trying some recepis in my vacations.today i will be preparing pani puri...as i said i am missing my friends and daily after college gets over we spend an hour in the 'dbl gali' eating n munching various kinds of street food.we have even made our some of favorite 'phuchkawalas' and  'sodawalas' . hehehhe....so i wanted to have phuckas today and i cant to my far off college to have it...:( poor me !!!.. so i will enjoy phuchkas at home today :)

happy holidays

yesterday i was watching 'social network' movie and i thought to myself that if mark can create facebook then even i can do something someday !! :P lolz
but thoughts naturally come and go...n you should have a strong will power to control them..
by the way,my exams are over and i have plenty of time...apart from helping mom in her household chores and playing with my sis,  really dont know what to do rest of the time.i am not really an outgoing person and thanks to soaring temperatures in kolkata i cant of think of going out :P heheehe
i got up at 11 am in the morning..one of my frnds had ringed up me in the morning but i rejected the call.the reasons were that  i did not wanted to interrupt my sleep and mom would start to stare at me like hell if i would talk to a guy at 7 in the morning...and  i am very particular about it that mom remains cool from my side  :D

      i still dont know c programming very well and have thought that i will practice them during vacations..but as i said that you must have strong will power..which i lack majorly
:D